Same here. She really, really loved me, in her way, and I love(d) her. Closest I’ve had yet to something long-term sustainable. But was it tho? She compared me to Jesus and called me a sex god. She drew my penis as art. Said I looked and smelled like a French king (it was well-intentioned). Really took an interest in my hobbies–to the point that they became her hobbies and it became a lot. We were really, really close. I ended up having to call the police on her when she finally confessed to the cheating and it ended. She shaved her head and moved to Indonesia. As with the highs, so with the lows.
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rabber@lemmy.ca 1 day agoIt’s not just the sex that’s the best though. Nobody’s ever been this nice to me before just in general. I really don’t want to run :(
I’ll check that book thx
ivanafterall@lemmy.world 1 day ago
Cruxifux@feddit.nl 17 hours ago
Damn you can just up and move to Indonesia like that?
rabber@lemmy.ca 1 day ago
Dude that is crazy. Are you doing ok now? That would traumatize me for the rest of my life.
TubularTittyFrog@lemmy.world 1 day ago
this is classic abuse victim rationalization.
Just because she treats you less like shit than other people in the past have, doesn’t mean she still isn’t treating you like shit.
rabber@lemmy.ca 1 day ago
I’m mentally ill too to be clear so it kind of goes both ways here lol. I’m a self destructive type of person so I feel like I almost deserve and even enjoy being treated like shit in some sort of way
I’m raised by narcissists and I’m slowly deprogramming from that and I hate to admit this but I think part of the reason I like her is she is extremely easy to manipulate and it’s easy for me to get her to do whatever I want. I don’t really intend to manipulate people but it’s still something I do sometimes that I really wish I didn’t. People with BPD are easily manipulated usually
TubularTittyFrog@lemmy.world 1 day ago
oh by all means then. treat each other like shit and rationalize it or whatever.
rabber@lemmy.ca 1 day ago
So far it feels like a net win compared to the rest of my shit life and I was single for 1.5 years before this and I couldn’t really stand it anymore
No normal girl is going to tolerate me in a long term relationship, they are completely out of my league