I made it to chapter 60 over the last 90 minutes.
I can’t even describe how angry I feel about that. Expletives don’t fit. I’m not big on death penalty, but I think these people deserve it - more than some who are sentenced to death.
I also am feeling incredibly grateful that my parents didn’t get caught up in the scam.
andros_rex@lemmy.world 3 days ago
I’ve only been able to make it to page 10. People often mock the idea of being “triggered” but fuck, it makes me need my trazadone. I want to print this in full color and leave it everywhere I can.
LandedGentry@lemmy.zip 3 days ago
Apologies for contributing to that feeling, definitely wasn’t my intention to upset you!
For those who haven’t read it and are unfamiliar with the horrific team abuse industry this comic depicts, it’s quite a fucking journey.
andros_rex@lemmy.world 3 days ago
It’s great - I actually shared it as one of the links in post. People do need to know what these places look like, and that visceral reaction I have to it hopefully means that it inspires others.
LandedGentry@lemmy.zip 3 days ago
Oh lol missed it my bad! Thought I checked your links
captainlezbian@lemmy.world 2 days ago
Don’t judge yourself for a ptsd reaction. People mocked triggers, but it was people who don’t understand that acute reminders of traumatic experiences are not merely unpleasant
andros_rex@lemmy.world 2 days ago
Yeah - I wish more folks understood what the experience is like. It’s like my brain lights on fire. I get angry, extremely angry and can be verbally really aggressive. If I’m alone, I can usually self regulate, but when I’m around others it’s much harder.
It’s been a struggle as I work to get this facility shut down. When I’m calling state agencies to get my torturer’s facility investigated, the second that I can pick up that they don’t believe, or if they minimize my experience - it ratchets me into a world of pure anger and panic.
I knocked over a container earlier and it made a loud sound as it landed on the ground - it made me angry. Embarrassingly ridiculously angry. It’s stupid, but I had the urge to throw the thing at the wall! I wanted to cuss it out! It’s an inanimate object, it didn’t break, I just needed to pick it up and put the pencils back in. It wasn’t a big deal. But in that split second where I went to that lizard brain, I was furious!
captainlezbian@lemmy.world 1 day ago
Have you ever been to a support group for this? What you’re describing is a pretty severe ptsd reaction. I know you said elsewhere that you’ve done a lot of mental health stuff and it’s not helped and has been furtherly traumatic, but having other people who can listen and you can know that they do understand might be good for you.