the thing that mentally exhausts me the most is guilt - guilt of undone chores, guilt of unfinished projects, guilt of unfulfilled “potential”. attempting to rest when surrounded with guilt is exhausting too
i’m working on it of course, but it’s a rather slow climb, with plenty of holes on the way. and if it was just internal that’d be half the problem it is, because on top of all the personal guilt i also need to push back against the culture of grind and constant productivity (which is, in itself, a big source of guilt)
the only way is through unless i give in to the temptation, fake my death, and join a buddhist monastery in tibet or something idk
Viking_Hippie@lemmy.dbzer0.com 2 days ago
Make up your mind. My ADHD and anxiety-ridden thought processes are at their MOST hyperactive, self-referential and -blaming when I try to do nothing.
Trying to do nothing with no distractions is just about the most stressful thing you can do to some atypical neuros.
hedgehogging_the_bed@lemmy.world 2 days ago
I get you, I also have raging ADHD.
The point is -not- to not think, you can think as much as you want about whatever you want. This is NOT mediation.
Just don’t be doing or watching something for a few minutes. Listen to silence. Not for a long time, just a couple of minutes is enough.
SeptugenarianSenate@leminal.space 2 days ago
whenever someone suggest to me that I should “focus on my breathing” it has always had that same effect to me as the meme that goes along the lines of “you suddenly realize that your tongue has never truly had a comfortable place to rest in your mouth”-type of feeling to me during my conscious attempts to control the rate at which I am breathing. esp when there’s someone trying to be a narrator type persona delivering the suggestion, and even more so if I start to feel (for whatever reason) that there is some sort of hope/expectation mixed in with their instruction, that I will be able to safely demonstrate the execution of such a simple yet unfamiliar feat in the moment of suggestion.