Which state are you in? That’s the most important thing to know to suggest getting weed
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DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 1 day ago
My college plans basically got derailed bacause I can’t control my emotions it fucking consumed me. I’m just a puddle of sadness now. I feel so dumb that I don’t even know where to get weed.
Average Chinese-American experience. I have no idea how the fuck, that my Chinese American classmates were able to handle all that shit their parents throw at them.
Every time the adults talk to each other, its end up with “so-and-so’s kid is taking college classes and they’re not even 16” or some bullshit.
Or the “Your cousin (Who’s also a US Citizen) is doing bussiness in [Some other country in Europe or Southeasr Asia]”
And they didn’t give me a phone when it was the smartphone era when everyone had one, so I was just the loser/weirdo sitting in the cornet staring at the wall during lunch and I can’t even finish homework because I don’t have a phone to look up google classroom, so much time wasted being bored.
Yea you wonder why I have self-esteem issues and no friends, no social life, and depressed as fuck.
Where the fuck do I get weed? (Also isn’t it like federally illegal in the US? Expecially considering… current politics… ahem #47 ahem)
noxypaws@pawb.social 1 day ago
DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 23 hours ago
Yea I… um… I don’t really feel like saying where I live, but basically recreational is illegal and its medical only.
And its still technically illegal on the federal level so I feel like feds are gonna be monitoring those locations. Biden admin had an executive order that told federal agencies to stop enforcing non-violent drug offenses in states where it’s legal, but today… this is trump admin we’re taking about. The law that makes weed illegal is still on the books and I feel scared.
noxypaws@pawb.social 22 hours ago
understandable fear, and a fear I share - but I still buy weed anyways. I decided not to let that fear keep me from enjoying one of the few still enjoyable things
jaupsinluggies@feddit.uk 15 hours ago
Yeah you’re right to be cautious. A random user ID and a state name is more than enough for the Feds to be able to figure out whose door to kick in.
LodeMike@lemmy.today 21 hours ago
There are usually easy ways to get a medical card. Try anxiety.
DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 21 hours ago
Oh yea about that… I feel like that paperwork stuff is just too much.
I’m still kinda dependent on my parents especially when it comes to depression and I need their money to get treatment for depression, drugs are a big no-no.
Because I was thinking like some under-the-table cash purchase that I can just wear a mask and sunglasses and walk into a store and just anonymously get it leaving no trace of ever being there. For medical cards, I’d have to get it registered with the state and that’s… a bit too much work and I’m mentally exhausted.
Like I’m assuming they’ll have to mail your medical card and yea if my parents saw that, I’m so fucked. I don’t have a friend to stay with, and with depression it isn’t gonna be fun to find randos to split rent with (rent is too expensive).
And I’m embarassed to say this, but I still have some sort of separation anxiety with my parents even tho they are very emotionally abusive. I took an entire bottle of antidepressants when I was at college because my emotions were overwhelming so I had to withdrawl. I think the reason why I have separation anxiety because I never propertly got to socialize since I was pretty much an outcast. Its sort of like a stockholm syndrome, but its more lile I really need financial support because I’m just not in a good mental space right now. I have like a year blanked due to my depressiona and that’s very difficult to ecplain to any employer, and its not like I can even handle it. I get scare by small noises like doors opening or closing (mostly caused by parents emotional abuse). I wake up trembling in fear, and wanting to die every moment. Doctor’s appointment takes months, and I already missed a few, which again, is due to me being a puddle of ancious goo when I need to get ready to leave.
I’m basically a Life is Strange protagonist but without any superpowers and without the friends (Alex Chen is so relatable, well except she had people that care about her, I don’t). Or I’m like Evil Morty, in terms of the abuse, and feeling trapped, but also not smart enough like Evil Morty being able to escape.
Sorry for the wall of text. Didn’t meant to dump an entire life trauma onto an internet stranger lol
meliaesc@lemmy.world 23 hours ago
What I’m reading:
You want to be successful. When you get compared to your family members, you wish they were proud of you too, because you value their opinion and want to contribute in a meaningful profession.
You want to fit in. You’d love to have the latest technology so you can not only participate in class, but also relate to the people around you.
You’re a responsible person. You want to avoid legal trouble and stick to following laws and social norms.
I don’t have any advice, but I just wanted to point out the wonderful things I noticed about you, and I hope you find your path or some peace soon.