DeathByBigSad
@DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works
- Comment on Betrayal 14 minutes ago:
- Comment on What Should Former Prince Andrew's New Title Be? 29 minutes ago:
The Dunce of York, Mr. Windsor.
- Comment on Why don't cars have a way to contact nearby cars like fictional spaceships do? 57 minutes ago:
Bruh that’s just multiplayer game voice chat IRL. Imagine chaos and trolling.
- Comment on Why isn't the rest of the world doing anything about the USA? 9 hours ago:
Xi Jingping, Putin, and Trump are all having a feast with each other, meanwhile their respective countries’ citizens starve. We have more in common with the average people across borders than with our own leaders.
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- Comment on Are bots on lemmy? 1 day ago:
Yeah… I think that people have this misconception that state-alligned propaganda has to be bots. No lol, there are actual people who voluntarily simp for states for free 🤣
I had peers in my school acting edgy and said “Hitler/Stalin did nothing wrong” , like bruh 💀
These people use the internet. I’m not sure if they even believe in what they say, but saying shit like that gets attention, and that’s what they crave for.
- Comment on Are bots on lemmy? 1 day ago:
Detroit: Become Human is clanker propaganda
- Comment on What do you call the beleif that gods are just higher beings on other planes of existence? 1 day ago:
Alien Worship Cultist
- Comment on When kids come trick-or-treating, what happens if I choose trick? 1 day ago:
I lived in brooklyn and never got egged or anything. Its was a multi-family unit that we rented. If we did get egged, then we didn’t hear about it because that’s the landlord’s problem. (There are 2 sets of doors, they have to get in the outer door before they could get into the hallway area.)
- Comment on When kids come trick-or-treating, what happens if I choose trick? 1 day ago:
Brooklyn, NY did Halloween.
I remember in like 2010 or 2011 going up and down the entire 86th street for like 3-7 block. Sooo many people, some stores ran out, or maybe they lied and didn’t participate and just had a big “NO CANDY” sign on the door.
Ah, memories. I was so nervous at the time, but in hindsight, that was a good memory. Such innocent me. I got so nervoid when I saw classmate lol, like the idea of seeing classmated outside of school was so terrifying to me. Like… embarassment was my top fear at the time, now… the fears are so much more political.
- Comment on When kids come trick-or-treating, what happens if I choose trick? 1 day ago:
My family never really did Halloween.
I mean I kinda went trick-or-treating for the first 2 Halloweens in NYC, but then I just felt like it was too childish. But I was 10, idk who I’m calling childish, I was literally still a child, maybe its the social anxiety.
We never gave out candy (I mean… we were literally broke ourselves), and idk what this “you’ll get egged” come from, that never happened.
- Submitted 2 days ago to showerthoughts@lemmy.world | 13 comments
- Comment on Is it weird to simultaneously feel love and hatred towards parents? 2 days ago:
I think this just boils down to the philosophical debate. Western Culture, its the parents that owes the child everything. In Eastern Culture, its the child that owes the parent everything.
I don’t even know, I mean logically, I kinda don’t hate being a human.
Sorry for getting a bit spiritual, but like if I didn’t get incarnated as… well… me, then, either, if we go the pure scientific route, I never exist and couldn’t experience the few thing I enjoyed.
But even if we go the spiritual route, its really a coinflip of if I end up being reincarnated in North Korea, Afghanistan, or actually have a decent life in like Norway. Or I could just become a rat and die instantly. So like… idk.
Going by the scientific definition, “I” would’ve never existed… so… idk… I don’t like suffering either, but I can’t say I didn’t have moments of existence I enjoyed.
So yea, its just a philosophy debate that has no real answers.
As for “go out and make friends”, let wait till this administration has ended, don’t want my face pushed into the pavement.
- Comment on What do they do with aborted fetuses? 2 days ago:
To be placed in a vat to be cloned and grown into supersoldiers for the upcoming UN vs Martian Congressional Republic War.
- Comment on When you attempt to get visas or citizenship status, you usually need legal documents from your home country, but what about dissidents who fled, and their government refuses to issue papers? 2 days ago:
When I filed for N-600 (Citizenship Papers), I remember having to get (1) Birth Certificates (was born in mainland China), (2) My Mother’s (who recently naturalized) Birth Cerficates, (3) My parents proof of marriage (I think). All these require the PRC government to be cooperative.
I can’t remember if we still had them with us here or if my parents asked relatives in China to get those for us (that was 2015, long time ago), but like, imagine if we lost it, and had to get them re-issued, then the PRC government found out I said a thing about Taiwan or something like that (I don’t think I had an opinion about that at the time, but just using it as an example), then they’re like… “you know what, fuck you lol, no papers”. That’d… be awkward…
But everything turned out fine, I got my papers and legal status.
I imagine Canada or EU has similar requirement of like your birth certificates?
- Submitted 2 days ago to nostupidquestions@lemmy.world | 9 comments
- Comment on During the lead up to the Holocaust did the N... regime just kidnap people who they even thought were Jews? Kind of like ICE is doing to citizens today? 2 days ago:
Ni… bbler?
- Comment on During the lead up to the Holocaust did the N... regime just kidnap people who they even thought were Jews? Kind of like ICE is doing to citizens today? 2 days ago:
Nepal
Nigeria
Netherlands
Norway
Nipon
New California Republic
North Korea
/j
- Comment on Is it weird to simultaneously feel love and hatred towards parents? 2 days ago:
So my parents never did alcohol or gambling or drugs or smoking or anything like that, so I’m glad, but they are very emotionally manipulative and sometimes emotionally abusive. They did slapped my hands when I “misbehave” (emphasis on the quotes, because that “misbehave” is only from their PoV) but never hit any vital organ or anything like that, this was normalized in my country. When we moved to the US, CPS became a thing so my parents stopped using corporal punishment for most of the time, also, I got bigger so I could fight back, so they stopped doing it. But were still emotionally abusive. Like they’d keep throwing insults all the time.
But, they also sacrificed a lot to give birth to me. They violated the One Child Policy, and had to pay a large fine to get me legal papers from the PRC government, so that I could be added onto the US immigration visa, so I could come with them. And like, I never really starved or anything, like I had food and I had a place to live, and I had clothing, I had basic needs, but just never had any fun or entertainment, and I’d be bored all the time. And when I was in China, I was often left at home all the time, due to economic reasons which I do not really blame my parents for. In NYC, I remember just being constantly in school and afterschool programs so parents could work, and I just felt like I never really got to know my parents, and I never made much friends in school, so I’d feel lonely and isolated all the time.
I remember some parts of my childhood, some rare fun moments, but those memories are often overshadowed by the loneliness and verbal abuse.
On one hand, I apprecitate them for literally breaking the law and allowing me to have some sort of experience in this world, and a life that I never truely starved. I mean I enjoyed all the Movies and TV shows I manage to find online and some games I had access to. All the interesting info about the world, history, technology, science.
On the otherhand, I never got to… like… socialize, because of emotional abuse, I stuggled to have much friendships and fear going outside. It was hard to talk to people. Because a lot of my younger years were spend either indoors at home, or just “indoors” at school, short of rare occasions when my patents had time, I never really like done much of exploring the world.
And I think its also their fault for me having depression, because I mean getting yelled at all the time is gonna mess up your brain.
So that’s why I’m conflicted.
- Submitted 2 days ago to nostupidquestions@lemmy.world | 28 comments
- Comment on Where is modern Punk? 3 days ago:
Speaking of Edelweiss, this is a very disturbing music-video version of it: www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASPURee4dJ4
(It’s the Man in the High Castle Intro Song, about an alt-universe where the axis won WW2.)
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
Fry, stop doing the nasty in the past-y
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
Prescription ran out, PCP told me to visit an actual psychaitrist, since there’s nit been any improvement and I’ve been kinda procratinating. I don’t have a driver’s license.
Then like I think a month ago, got a referral from the PCP, I did it online via video call, then they told me they are more of doing talk therapy and basically told me to go somewhere else if I’m “drugseeking” (they didn’t actually say this, they used a more “polite” corpo speech like “oh sooo sorry, we can’t really help you here, here’s a bunch of referrals and fuck right off”, (okay they didn’t say that either, but that’s practically what I got from it))
So I was supposed to find another place to seek treatment, but all I’ve been doing for the past month was binge watching TV and Anime. And ruminating on childhood, both the trauma and the rare happy moments, having another existential crisis. Really just trying to keep the suicidal thoughts at bay.
Oh they charged $500, for a 30 minute call jesus christ, insurance dropped it back to $150, but oh well I hope my parents pays for it. Because they caused me depression in the first place.
I did a quick search, each session after the initial evaluation could still cost like $200, not sure how many sessions insursnce cover.
Lovely right? Very lovely. Wanna speed run it and maybe reincarnate into Norway. Jesus christ.
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
I dreamed and wished I was and that some loving family would find out and come take me away.
Relatable xD
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
Like you got swapped at the hospital? What would that change for you?
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It would probably trigger an existential crisis in me. Identity crisis.
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It could explain my depression and anxiety. I heard that the bond between biological mother and child is stronger, like there’s a biology aspect to make the bond stronger or something. So maybe lacking the bond would cause issues with parent-child relationships
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If my parents were aware of it, it could explain why they seem to be okay with abusive behaivors, afterall, it wouldn’t “really” be their “real” child. As to why they would take me in the first place. I have no idea, I read weird stories all the time. Some rich family stole a kid from a poor family back in the 1900s in the US. Later DNA tests after their deaths revealed the truth.
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I’d be more willing to just go no contact if I became aware of this fact. Not that I dislike the idea of adoptive parents, but its also factoring their borderline abusive behaviors. It would be the final nail in the coffin, this relationship would be dead and burried.
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Citizenship issues. So everything gets retroactively annulled, citizenship, and my entry when I was 8 would’ve been retroactively made illegal. (This is a reason to not to the dna test)
But on the other hand, if DNA is confirmed to be a match, I would be slightly more comfortable with talking to them about my issues, I mean at least I can stop worrying about that weird obssessive fear and constantly questioning the past.
And I don’t mean to offend anyone who was adopted, the culture I was raised in was different, so please excuse me for any offense.
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- Comment on YouTube is taking down videos on performing nonstandard Windows 11 installs 3 days ago:
Me in 2026: diving into the dark web to find an instruction manual
They took control of the digital town square and now its a prison. Monopolitistic shithole corporate vampire behavior.
“Freedom is dead. Freedom remains dead. And we’ve killed it. How shall we comfort ourselves, the murderers of all murderers? What festivals of atonement, what sacred games shall we have to invent?”
-Nietzsche 2026
- Comment on It's interesting to see what qualifies as a swear in different languages. 3 days ago:
Yes I know, I was born when it was still effect.
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
I was born in Mainland China, birth certificate would’ve been a lot easier to forge, if someone just bribed the right person.
Speaking of this topic: I remember watching a HK TV drama and one of the plot points was the villain’s backstory was because he got swapped as a baby by a midwife who got bribed for it, so dude grew up, finding about the childhood he could’ve had, so he wanted revenge and killed the midwife, when he later became an adult. There are also mainland China TV shows about some kid got lost as a kid, and was actually used to be from a wealthy family.
(These TV drama plots are wild, I know right)
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
Do you have a birth certificate?
Memories are fuzzy, but I should have one, since the N-600 required it.
That said tho, birth certificates don’t exactly prove much, other than that I legally exist. I mean, what if that birth certificate was issued in the name of a deceased person? What if, hypothetically speaking, if these aren’t my biological parents, and their original kid died, and they kidnapped me as a weird parental desire to fill in their now-dead child’s place, used as like a sort of bandaid over their grief or something?
Idk maybe I read too much fucked up news stories or watch too many tv drama.
Do you have access to a mental health professional?
And no, I got a bunch of referrals but sort of procrastinated. I should probably schedule an appointment, this depression headache is killing me.
I don’t have a driver license so I need my parents to drive me to doctors visits. Unless I’m gonna waste like $30 on Uber every trip, which I don’t have the luxury of. And I absolutely cannot do public transit, tooo many people. My parents (if they even are my parents, that is) are busy all the time. I’m too broke, and I need them be with me to get them to pay the copays.
Oh fuck, ever since I stopped taking antidepressants, my thoughts just go fucking wild.
- Comment on Has anyone here ever doubted if your parents were your "real" parents? Is it normal to have these weird thoughts? 3 days ago:
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Its reminds me of those old websites that don’t even have javascript yet and didn’t have a fancy “Log In” button.
