DeathByBigSad
@DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works
- Comment on Adversarial Poetry as a Universal Single-Turn Jailbreak Mechanism in Large Language Models 9 hours ago:
Theres a form of poetry called 反诗 that’s basically covertly hiding meaning into poems that criticizes the authorities. In ancient times, scholers would write these poems.
You could also like hide meaning by reading it like acrostically or like diagonally.
Here: (A very amateur freeverse “poem”
天下如此广佛 (The world such vast)
平安京城广场 (Peaceful Beijing Plaza/Square)
达到门下停歇 (People Resting [in Tianamen Square])
兴旺的大都市 (Prosperous Big Capital City)
满路的游徒看 (The roads filled with tourists sightseeing)
这风吹满地沙 (This wind blowing the sands all over the place)Read diagonally (the highlighted characters)
You get:
天安门大徒沙 (Tian An Men Da Tu Sha)
Which in Mandarin sounds exactly like
天安门大屠杀 (Tiananmen Massacre)
Voila! Thanks for coming to my TED Talk on “How to hide meaning in poetry” Lesson 101, by a random Chinese-American Nerd (me).
- Comment on If Marx was alive during the Cold War and beyond, how would he react to the communist states that rose to power? Would he approve or disapprove of them? 10 hours ago:
I don’t think Marx would be as revered by the “communists” (emphasis on the quotation marks) as much as current timeline had he lived longer.
It’s easy to idolize dead people, after all, they can’t denounce your movement from the grave.
I mean, you can see this with both PRC and ROC reveres 孫中山 (Sun Yat-sen) as the 國父 founder of the country, but… imagine if he lived longer…
Maybe there wouldn’t be a civil war? Maybe CCP still wins and then Sun Yat-sen is not idolized within PRC in this new timeline… who knows?
We don’t really have a magical brain-scan of them to recreate a simulation of their brains, so its really just speculation.
But I don’t think Marx and Stalin would be on the same side. Perhaps there might not been a dictator Stalin, if Marx was alive. What’s for certain is that there would be a huge butterfly effect.
- Comment on 12 hours ago:
Trying to last forever in history books.
I mean, all human die, so narcissists are definitely looking for the most attention possible, present and future.
- Comment on How do you objectively tell if a parents "I love you" is actually sincere, if they actually care about you? Or if the words are lies and they don't actually care? 13 hours ago:
They used to slap the palm of my hand when I was like… I forgot… but I was very young… I don’t really have any memories of corporal punishment after like 10, since I got bigger and you know, I could just run and hide or block it or fight back. I think it could be because of the fear of CPS (we moved to the US when I was 8, and the general vibe is that “physical disciplime” is less accepted here). Not sure, but anyways, they stopped doing it.
I don’t remember dad ever doing that, it was always mom.
But I don’t remember ever getting hit in like any where like organs or anything vital
But evem after, they yell a lot… I kinda feel a lot of anxiety whenever my mom is near…
And yes, I recognize this as abuse, no need to remind me. I hated it. But then again, we came from China, filial piety BS, and that’s how my parents probably grew up… so… idk if I could judge them by the conservative/“traditional” culture they grew up in. Idk why I’m lowkey downplaying it… Maybe this is some stockholm syndrome or trauma bonding or something, idk, my brain is weird… brains are weird…
But then I again… do remember having a lot of positve memories of them… I did have many moments of happiness… I think… with a few traumatic moments sprinkled in between…
I have separation anxiety when it comes to my parents. I wasn’t able to live on campus because the anxiety overwhelmed me. And so I pause college like indefinitely until my depression gets fixed. And they did pay for my college, so… there’s that…
They did make a lot of “sacrafices” so… there’s that.
I don’t think I was ever really deprived of food/water. My basic survival needs were met, but my emotional needs were… not always met… like… there are times where my mother have spend time with me, and it was really wholesome and sweet, and I remember that calm loving motherly voice. I remember feeling like she cared for me, I think, I remember her worrying about me.
But I also remember those times where I felt lonely. Those times where I get yelled at, and I felt afraid, and I cried a lot. (sorry I know I sound pathetic)
But then again, it also has to do with the fact that… in this world… society views money as the most important thing… so parents were busy all the time and had to work… regardless of if when we were China or the US (although the US generally paid better, which why we moved)…
so their partial emotional neglect could be also attributed to society’s fault…
so…
so… its a very complex relationship…
I simultaneously appreciate them for what they did…
But also fear them and kinda hate them…
But I’m on their healthcare plan and I kinda want them to pay for my um… medical bills, that I’m probably gonna incur soon since I’ll have to restart treatments…
which was paused because they were kinda skeptical of psychaitry so I felt guilty and didn’t wanna be a burden so I stopped taking medications and stop going to the doctor (PCP, not a specialist) because I was just too depressed to go…
I mean the PCP told me to find a psychaitrist…
but that where I’m at… kinda hard to look aroud for one that accept the insurance + accepts new patients + they don’t “feel sketchy” to me (like say… located in a rough part of the city, for example)…
but I asked mom if she was willing to pay for it and she agreed to… I mean it’s not like I can pay for it…
so… 🤷♂️
I guess its kinda my lifeline… because I’m very close to just ending it if they stopped supporting me. I really really wanna just jump off a nearby bridge like tomorrow… but I can’t tell a doctor about it because I don’t wanna get locked up.
- Comment on What would you want to see this site do differently from Reddit? 15 hours ago:
As for spreading their poison, I don’t think people are mindless automatons who must become awful when exposed to offensive rhetoric all day. If mere exposure is all it takes, then they probably lacked decent principles.
Tankies are kinda deceptive and manipulative tho. They pretend to be leftists, then when Mamdani gets elected, they started slandering him, calling him a “zionist” or some bs, even tho he’s a Muslim.
Reason why their shit doesn’t work on me is because I was born in one of those “communist” countries they constantly praise about, which is very contradictory to my lived experiences. I know enough to recognize tankie bs and also the far-right bs.
- Comment on I like making these memes out of spite 17 hours ago:
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- Comment on How do you objectively tell if a parents "I love you" is actually sincere, if they actually care about you? Or if the words are lies and they don't actually care? 19 hours ago:
No, parents aren’t maga. I was mocking maga parents from the PoV of typical White American household. Sorry if that was confusing.
- Comment on Let’s slow it down a bit please 20 hours ago:
Rewind please, I missed important dialogue that might contain an important plot point.
Where the fuck is the remote?
- Comment on What would you want to see this site do differently from Reddit? 20 hours ago:
Communism may be defined as a wheelbarrow full of monkeys for all that matters, in the real world every self-sufficient communist regime was a shitshow of state capitalism, coercion, censorship, and state violence. All the drawbacks of capitalism and none of the perks.
I mean, fair point. I do agree with the fact thay “communism” in practice has practically always been a shitshow.
- Comment on Why does American media (and to an extent the American public) seem to only focus on one issue at a time? 21 hours ago:
Most media is owned by a few people…
ignoring everything else (esp. given that he was already convicted for doing similar acts as well as a bunch of other naughty stuff to do with money and government documents)
I mean… the courts already gave him a pass… that’s old news, people won’t watch and they wint make money. (and also, again, most media is controlled by those few people at the top)
The American media can only latch onto one “hot” topic at a time and it’s infuriating.
Not unique to Americans. Chinese people, particularly nationalists (by “nationalist”, I mean as in the ideology, not the 国民党 (Kuomingtang) party) are constantly talking about Taiwan and sometimes Japan… like… I don’t ever hear people talk about internal issues…
That’s how propaganda works, every government is trying to control their people through propaganda, but the less-democratic ones are doing it more successfully, the less democratic the country is, the more powerful the propaganda is. They use these single issue to distract from the real everyday issues like cost of living, labor rights, etc…
(Note: I’m Chinese American)
- Comment on What would you want to see this site do differently from Reddit? 21 hours ago:
National socialism is by definition socialist therefore it is left wing and Marxist.
Lmao what bruh 🤣
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- Comment on Immigrant children probably never have to deal with the embarassment of accidentally called their teacher "mom"/"dad" because of the difference in language. 1 day ago:
Now calling your significant other mom/dad, that’s a whole nother issue.
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Its funny how because in Asia, the concept of sex is taboo, therefore, there is (AFAIK) no such sexual connotations with the corresponding words for “daddy”.
- Submitted 1 day ago to showerthoughts@lemmy.world | 7 comments
- Comment on What would you want to see this site do differently from Reddit? 1 day ago:
Communism is by definition a stateless, classless society. A “Communist State” is therefore an oxymoron.
- Comment on What would you want to see this site do differently from Reddit? 1 day ago:
“Communist”
Looks inside
It’s just a bunchbof failed Vanguardist movements that ended up becoming Authoritarian State Capitalism
- Comment on Why is ethanol so tasty? 1 day ago:
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So we are getting that UBI, right? Right?
👀
- Comment on Why civilians don't crowdfund bribe money for politicians? 1 day ago:
In a corrupt developing country, anyone can bribe officials for things, especially if its small and within that officials purview, in a dysfunctional semi-corrupt developed capitalist democracy, only the rich 1% can.
Example: One Child Policy was officially policy in China, but you pay their “fines”/bribes/extortion (or whatever you wanna call it) and voila, problems go away. Ask how I know… I am the second son in my family lol, and no, we aren’t a rich family, it was like from savings over a period time or something, or maybe my parents borrowed from relatives, idk the details… like… people just bribe for a lot of small everyday stuff, I heard about even getting jobs or getting into university, and people talk so casually about it. There’s a term for it “走后门” (2nd definition: to pull strings; to call in favours; to use the influence of someone in authority to achieve one’s goal), usually someone you know (关系 Guanxi), and you give them money, like probably in the form of a 红包 (Red Envelope, you know, the new year thing).
In America? Nah, there’s law and order… or something… you can’t just bribe for stuff…
Its a “gift” lol, not bribe. Thomas Clarance has declared so. Just ask him about it while he’s on vacation on the yacht of some random 1%er.
Wait, you wanna do the same? Wanna buy a supreme court justice or a congress member? Nah fam, come back when you’re part of the 1%.
(TLDR, my point is: Every country sucks and is corrupt in one way or another.)
- Comment on Maybe most of society doesn't have much critical thinking because those who get those "critical thinking" genes go crazy from overthinking things and therefore fail to pass on the genes. 2 days ago:
Wait y’all get taught critical thinking?
I just hated all the teachers and instinctively challenge all authorities, from parents, to teachers, to school admins, police, and governments. Trust nobody.
They don’t teach critical thinking in schools.
- Submitted 2 days ago to showerthoughts@lemmy.world | 28 comments
- Comment on Browser Fingerprinting And Why VPNs Won’t Make You Anonymous 2 days ago:
Pfft, I have 12 firewalls, good luck decrypting these. 🤓
- Comment on It's all relative 2 days ago:
Me: reading posts from everyone on the western internet about using mind-altering drugs
My Brain: “See, soda addiction isn’t that bad, drink some more!”
- Comment on Why do some people make such a big deal over ages of someone's account on here? 2 days ago:
Not even a day… Lmfao
- Comment on If it were possible to travel back in time and manipulate events, we could take a book back in time and publish it before the author historicallt does... as a prank... 2 days ago:
Calm down Satan, we wanna do a little trolling, not create a butterfly nuke.
- Comment on Your Smartphone, Their Rules: How App Stores Enable Corporate-Government Censorship | ACLU 2 days ago:
You can already see an example somewhere…:
iPhone, iOS, China, Great Firewall, VPN Apps. (VPN apps can’t be found in China’s version of the Apple App Store) And of course, it’s iOS, it already doesn’t have “sideloading”.
Westerners pay attention, because that’s the future we’re getting. The Splinternet and the end of Freedom.
- Comment on If it were possible to travel back in time and manipulate events, we could take a book back in time and publish it before the author historicallt does... as a prank... 2 days ago:
- Submitted 2 days ago to showerthoughts@lemmy.world | 27 comments
- Comment on Dads be like 2 days ago:
But… it’s to scare away the ghosts…
🥺👉👈
- Comment on Does this post appear on Lemmy? 3 days ago:
Lmao, this post just appeared for some reason. But it says 16 hours ago.
Did I just Reading Steiner into a new Worldline?
(but seriously tho, federation is weird and laggy sometimes)
