DeathByBigSad
@DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works
- Comment on Fake Protest Videos Are the Latest AI Slop to Go Viral in MAGA World 8 hours ago:
WELCOME TO THE WORRRLD OF TOMOORRROW!
Where truth doesn’t matter anymore.
- Comment on Why do people hate reality? 11 hours ago:
Okay I’m not sure if I’m gonna be able to answer your question, but I’ll explain what my reality is:
My reality is that I was not supposed to be born. I’m from the People’s Republic of China. My mother already gave birth to a child, my older brother, who btw, later becomes abusive to me. I was not supposed to be born, and the only reason why I even exist is because social security didn’t exist and my parents expect their children to take care of them when they get old, some “filial piety” shit. I was an “investment” to them, nothing more, not even a human, I’m a slave. Didn’t even have legal status until my “parents” gave the CCP a bribe (aka: a “fine”). Everything in the country was totally fucked. My older brother fights me all the time. Felt like 2 barn animals with the farm owner (aka: “parents”) not present most of the time, and there’s just fighting all the time.
In the US, I school went from 7 am to 6 pm because of afterschool programs and stuff. And then I had summer school. Its those run by Chinese-American “non-profit organizations” full with emotional abuse towards kids, not surprising, they’re just like my parents, an extention of them, the same “confucian” value of abusing children. The other kids, both Chinese Americans and also white and black kids, were all just against me. Zero solidarity. Nobody wanted to talk to me. Perhaps it had to do with my older brother fucking up my social skills. Anyways I get bullied a lot. Barely had any days off. Its just school for like 4 years straight in Brooklyn, NYC. And then if I was ever home, I’d get yelled at by my own parents instead. Literally zero safe haven. When I got to the city I’m in now, there are even less Asians in Elementary and Middle School that I get bullied even more. I was called a “ching chong” by both white and black classmates.
Then fastforward to highschool, I got unlawfully arrested by cops on dubious charges that never went anywhere, charges got dropped.
And then we got 2nd term trump threatening to deport me from the only country that I ever knew. And I’m also facing persecution by my previous country. I already said too much bad things about the CCP and Xi, I can never step foot in mainland China (or HK, Macau, for that matter) ever again. And on top of that, my parents and older brother all hate me.
This is the reality I have.
It it really wrong to just watch some movies, tv, anime, play some video games, etc? Is there anything wrong with just wanting to find some, even just a tiny bit of happiness of happiness from this bleak world? There are beautifuly crafted stories, and I want to enjoy them, I want to be immersed in a better world, even if its fake, to temporarily suppress the thoughts of enemies being EVERYWHERE. So please, don’t judge people, let them do whatever in peace, a little happiness a day can keep your mind from breaking under this fucked up world where everything is fucked up.
- Comment on Why do people hate reality? 12 hours ago:
Omg you sounds like those karens during covid. “our ancestors didn’t have vaccines” “vaccine cause autism” “not natural”
LOL
- Comment on Why do people hate reality? 13 hours ago:
Lemme guess, “vaccine bad” amirite?
- Comment on Google Confirms Non-ADB APK Installs Will Require Developer Registration 1 day ago:
Also: Torrent clients are available on Google Play (for now, at least), Apple never allowed them.
- Comment on Google Confirms Non-ADB APK Installs Will Require Developer Registration 1 day ago:
F-Droid will probably get revoked if they allow apps like Newpipe.
- Comment on Google Confirms Non-ADB APK Installs Will Require Developer Registration 1 day ago:
Google will become the exact same as apple, third party stores are technically “allowed”, but requires Google’s official stamp (digital signature), it’s same with Apple.
A corporation like Epic Games will be left alone since they can afford lawyers. An open source volunteer dev making a Youtube alternative client will get their certificates revoked under dubious “ToS Violation” claims and they won’t have money to sue.
- Comment on One iPhone led police to gang who sent 40,000 snatched phones to China 1 day ago:
Cops actually doing something? Wow, my opinion of them is now only 99.99% negative
>looks at link “British Broadcasting Channel”
>check location Ah, there we go, “UK”; American cops would just be eating donuts and getting fat
- Comment on If you lose your memories, are "you" dead? If a close relative/friend lose their memories, are they still "your relative/friend"? What the hell even is memory? How sentimental are you about memories? 1 day ago:
I have memories that I feel like is part of my identity… I’m so afraid of losing this memory, it’s a very painful one, but it’s part of my identity, it’s part of my personality, of who I am.
So… I had a adverse childhood event when I was like maybe 6 or 7. Bascially it was 2 things. Supposedly, the events went like this: I was playing with some of my older brother’s toys, and like I didn’t even have the concept of personal space and personal belongings yet, my mother said the toys were meant for “us” didn’t get specific about it, I was a kid so I assumed it was shared… so anyways he got mad at me, and so he used zipties to tie me up and my parents weren’t home. The latter part is the only thing I’m sure of, I wasn’t sure what instigated it, but he was older so there was no excuse for him. Then the next thing (different day) that happened was thay I probably (I assume anyways, I don’t know for sure) that I was probably playing with 'his" toys again, so he chased me around the apartment unit, so I got scared I ran for the door, I ran away from home. Granmother was home, but didn’t do shit about it. The whole fucking scene was chaotic, its like the “Darkest Timeline” meme. So I was alone, for the first time in my life, truely alone. Idk what to do, I kinda just ran. I walked like half an hour to the nesrest bus stop, I got on a bus, and I was just trying to find my mother’s workplace. I got there, she wasn’t there, (because she was already looking for me, grandmother called her), so I was just fucking scared in the fucking store that she worked at, idk what to do. So after like idk 10 minutes, I just went home again, waiting for he bus in the opposite side.
And if you wonder why nobody said anything about a seemling distressed and unaccopanied child, this was mainland China, nobody would step in to other people’s bussiness, bus driver probably though I was the kid of the adult in front of me anyways.
Like I’m just fucking crying as I type this, its so traumatic but I can NEVER forget this. I can never forget the betrayal by my own kinship. I DO NOT WANNA FORGET THIS. As painful as it is, its important. I cannot trust this person who is supposed to be my protector in absence of my parents, “兄弟” (brotherhood) amirite? Where the fuck did his responsibilities go, huh? You were supposed to be a brother, not a fucking abuser.
So anyways, when I got back to the bus stop I can see the cops looking around and I saw my mother. So there that was that.
BUT WAIT, my mother later told me that if she hadn’t found me, I would probably get kidnapped, and she’d just pretend I never existed and would not fault my older brother (5 years older than me) for my disappearance.
MY MOTHER SAID SHE DIDN’T CARE IF I WENT MISSING. WHAT THE FUCK?!?
This was a suppressed memory for a while. I mean I knew it happened, but actively tried to not think about it but it always come back. The past happened. Its because it happens again and again and no matter how many roses I put on top of the remnants of the battle, there’s still blood, blood everywhere (“battle” being the incident, and “blood” meaning the emotional trauma).
I can’t hide it. I don’t wanna hide it.
I was a fucking anamoly, wasn’t even supposed to be born, yet somehow was born under the One Child Policy era, escaped from the grasp of the CCP, only to have a fucking abusive brother fucking up my life anyways.
Honetly, I might’ve been reincarnated in Norway or something, had the CCP been able to find my mother and forced an abortion before I was born.
The idea of “China” has been forever tainted in my mind. Its a graveyard of traumatic memories, I went to Baidu maps to look at where I was, and I just fucking cry.
But I can’t forget it. I can’t afford to. I need to remember. I need to remember this betrayal. Someone of my own blood attacking me. What the fuck?!? I remind myself every so often. Never forget. Never.
So this is why I asked the question. If I ever forget this, am I still me? Because I’d be vulnerable to betrayals. I do not want to be betrayed again.
- Submitted 1 day ago to nostupidquestions@lemmy.world | 9 comments
- Comment on If you lose your memories, are "you" dead? If a close relative/friend lose their memories, are they still "your relative/friend"? What the hell even is memory? How sentimental are you about memories? 1 day ago:
Well yes, but actually no.
- Comment on If you lose your memories, are "you" dead? If a close relative/friend lose their memories, are they still "your relative/friend"? What the hell even is memory? How sentimental are you about memories? 1 day ago:
OR IS IT?
vsauce intensifies
- Comment on Google Confirms Non-ADB APK Installs Will Require Developer Registration 1 day ago:
wireless debugging, you can connect the phone to itself via a wifi network, then send adb commands to itself. loopholes lol
- Comment on Google Confirms Non-ADB APK Installs Will Require Developer Registration 1 day ago:
But ADB bypasses it.
(for now, at least)
- Comment on Google Confirms Non-ADB APK Installs Will Require Developer Registration 1 day ago:
“big gov” can be influenced by citizens. meanwhile, “big corp” is controlled by shareholders, the average person has zero say in how the corporate is run
- Comment on How Long is Too Long for a Reply? 1 day ago:
Its only weird if its an hour old account commenting on a 7 day post with bad faith arguments and whataboutisms, or randomly accusing the OP/commenters of dubious claims like “GENOCIDE SUPPORTER” or “PEDOPHILE”. (I saw a new obvious alt replying to a 5 month post for no reason lol, browse the modlogs… its fun)
- Comment on How Long is Too Long for a Reply? 1 day ago:
I generally look for posts:
- Top voted within 24 hours, usually the first 2 pages, sometimes more,
- Sometimes I browse posts with a specific community, mostly check the past 3 days, I generally reply to anything with 3 days and don’t care if its 1 minute ago or literally 72 hours ago.
- After that, I usually don’t comment, unless I’m really interested, and its within 14 days
- or if its a old post/comment saying stuff like “mark my words” and then something relevent happened recently in the news, and I might comment and be like “Lol you were right/wrong” regardless of how long ago. -If its a post I already viewed and mentally invested in the conversation, I’d re-visit new comments, I will reply there for up to 7 days since time of post. Or if its an ongoing debate in the comments, I can go on forever if it’s a good faith debate.
- Comment on Chat Control 2.0: what if Signal supports user-made Add-ons, one which encrypts all messages? Could that circumvent Chat Control 2.0? 2 days ago:
They’ll just pass Chat Control Enhanced Edition+™ to close any loopholes.
- Comment on If you lose your memories, are "you" dead? If a close relative/friend lose their memories, are they still "your relative/friend"? What the hell even is memory? How sentimental are you about memories? 2 days ago:
Average Exurb1a Video lmao
I recommend this one as a start
Or do you wany some Unlimited Rice Pudding? (Time Machine Hypothetical)
- Comment on If you lose your memories, are "you" dead? If a close relative/friend lose their memories, are they still "your relative/friend"? What the hell even is memory? How sentimental are you about memories? 2 days ago:
My name is Hououin Kyouma, Maddo Scientisuto.
- Comment on If you lose your memories, are "you" dead? If a close relative/friend lose their memories, are they still "your relative/friend"? What the hell even is memory? How sentimental are you about memories? 2 days ago:
Memories do define me tho.
I need the memories of all the betrayals, by individuals, and organizations, and governments, otherwise I’d get betrayed again. Memories are important to know who to trust.
- Comment on YSK that 55% of Gazan Children has suicidal thoughts in a 2022 report 2 days ago:
Bruh, you’re saying the equivalent of: “Why does the Chinese/Koreans even bother to have children when they are under imperial japanese occupation.”
💀
antinatalists… smh…
- Submitted 2 days ago to nostupidquestions@lemmy.world | 51 comments
- Comment on Does anyone know? 2 days ago:
Me everything I watch a new movie/TV/anime.
“Wtf”, “What?”, “Nani?”
Also wtf is Tenet, does anyone even know? Or is Christopher Nolan just making a whole 2 hour movie to call his audience dumb? So fucking confusing, so much action, 0 plot.
- Comment on I can't say I am going to kill the president. But can the president specify me a civ saying he is going to kill me? And it be legal? 2 days ago:
When you fail an open book test…
Honestly, trump voters can’t be called [A]mericans anymore, they got [F-], now the entire class is getting punished because most present on the exam day failed, and some didn’t even show to to take the test.
- Comment on If the USA ever rewrites their constitution it will likely have embedded ads. 2 days ago:
Also with a mandatory arbitration agreement, the “supreme court” is really just one dude, that that’s that corporate CEO’s brother.
- Comment on If the USA ever rewrites their constitution it will likely have embedded ads. 2 days ago:
Please purchase a subscription to rent a license to your constitutional rights.
- Comment on AI chatbots that butter you up make you worse at conflict, study finds 2 days ago:
Having an older brother makes you very skilled at socialization. I learned one simple thing: EVERYTHING IS A THREAT, DON’T TRUST ANYONE!
becomes a hermit in the woods
- Comment on How realistic is it for me to learn Japanese so that I can experience Anime better? How long would it take to learn? Has anyone attempted this? 2 days ago:
Japanese: one thousands place, three hundreds place, five tens place, two
That sounds like: 一千 三百 五十 二 (In both Chinese and Japanese Kanji)
“thousand(s)” is one word, there is no separate “place” word lol, doesn’t seem that different from english tbh
I think the better way to highlight the difference with English is the 萬 (10,000) 億 (100,000,000) which becomes the new place value instead of “milllion” (1,000,000) and “billion” (1,000,000,000). 千萬 (thousand-[wan/man]; aka: thousand-[ten thousand]; aka: 10,000,000) become a new word that would be slightly more challenging for English-Only speakers.
- Comment on I can't say I am going to kill the president. But can the president specify me a civ saying he is going to kill me? And it be legal? 2 days ago:
Depends on which president.
In Russia, China, USA, its de facto legal.
And it also depends on which president you made the threat against, and where you are. I’m pretty sure as a US Citizen in the US, I can safely say this:
I’m gonna kill the President of PRC. I have always wanted to, I have a personal grudge his political party, and him being in that party make him my enemy. I really wanna shoot him in the face, and if I had a gun, and he was right in front of me, I’d shoot him until he dead, then reload and keep shooting.
There. I said it. Lol. FBI wouldn’t bat an eye since the US and PRC are adversaries right now. I’m gonna wait and see if PRC is gonna send their agents for me.
(I mean unless they settle on some trade deal that ends with deporting US Citizen anti-PRC dissidents? 👀)