labbbb@thelemmy.club 10 months ago
…the army of my moronic country has killed thousands of Ukrainian civilians, foreign media have been writing for a whole year that this country wants to start a war with NATO.
I’m really sorry, I don’t know what to do… I constantly live in stress, anxiety, with a feeling of hopelessness, depression, I’m procrastinate a lot…
Normal people, in principle, do not live in this country, and my mother does not consider me to be a person, as, in principle, most ruSSians (these mad dogs) treat each other.
… yikes. That must be hell.
You speak fluent English, any markets for that kind of skill in that area? Could teach maybe?
Unfortunately, the time-honored tradition for people in your situation is to keep your head down, keep quiet and be careful. I imagine you probably already knew that though.
Normal people, in principle, do not live in this country.
They do, it's just that like you they've learnt to be careful about what they say, and to only look out for themselves out of hard experience. Or they once cared, but life ground them down, so they sought escape in alcohol or whatever.
Not that this helps, but maybe it'll help you feel less lonely, when someone says something stupid. They may simply be pretending to be an idiot.
Obviously, this is by design. If people were open about being unhappy about their country, this would threaten the government.
I can't help you with work, but reading and podcasts can be a great help when you don't have access to mental health services.
The book you’re recommended is about PTSD, but not a C-PTSD, so I thinking if it’s make sense…
I’m a trauma therapist, The Body Keeps the Score is very good for C-PTSD. You should also read Gabor Mate’s books and watch his interview with Tim Ferris on YouTube. It’s called Dr Gabor Mate on trauma, addiction, Ayahuasca and more. Read Richard Schwartz work around Internal Family Systems Therapy. He did an amazing interview with Rich Roll called Multiplicity of the Mind.
There’s a lot of really good content online if you can’t access a therapist. You want to start with making sure you can self regulate and self soothe and build from there. Somatic exercises will help you.
I smiled reading your comment.
Thanks for the book recommendation. I already use a VPN, but piracy is bad tho
r_13@lemmy.world 10 months ago
Your English language is excellent, is that something you can use to your benefit?
labbbb@thelemmy.club 10 months ago
Guys, I can understand pretty well what is said in the text in English, but I am not good at listening and speaking English. I can form sentences a little, but I sometimes make serious mistakes, such as putting the tense wrong.
I used an online translator to write the text in this thread.
foggy@lemmy.world 10 months ago
English’s notoriously one of the hardest languages to learn. Don’t worry about getting the tenses wrong. People do that all the time who are conversationally fluent speaking English as a second language. Any native English speaker won’t be phased by it, and can easily tell what you’re saying.
If someone said they maked a mistake, I wouldn’t be confused. If someone said “I was going to the mall yesterday” any native English speaker would know that you meant “I went to the mall yesterday.”
Consider that your mental health situation might be giving you some tunnel vision making it easy to rule out viable paths forward. Honestly, if you can read and understand this response, I would say you are generally fluent. At least with reading and writing.
otp@sh.itjust.works 10 months ago
I believe “I was going to the mall yesterday” is perfectly grammatical. It’s in the past continuous tense, if I’m not mistaken, and it would generally be used to describe something we were doing when something else happened.
Replace “going” with “walking”, and you have the first sentence in someone’s story about, say, the dinosaur attack they witnessed on the way to the mall.
Cossty@lemmy.world 10 months ago
Since I was a kid, I was always told that English is one of the easiest languages to learn. I learned it primarily from movies, shows and videogames. School wasn’t very helpful in that regard. My usage of the language is almost exclusively for listening and reading, I speak in it very sparsely. Nobody in my vicinity uses it. So I wouldn’t consider myself to be fluent because I have no idea how my conversation with native speaker would go. If I catch myself, I try to think in it every chance I get.
1984@lemmy.today 10 months ago
If you can learn how to code, you could maybe work as a remote programmer and make enough money to leave that hell hole.
labbbb@thelemmy.club 10 months ago
You know, what’s funny… even if I have money and skills, I won’t be able to leave here, because before the age of 30 (it used to be up to 27 years old) you need to have a military ID in order to (not only work officially, but also) from here leave, but even those who served in the army are still sent to the military registration and enlistment office at the border. And this is not surprising, because in this fucking country there is no justice, no respect for human rights, nothing… even if the military registration and enlistment office says that you can cross the border, often in Russian “jurisprudence” it turns out that these government bodies can redirect you back and forth ad infinitum, it’s just a mockery… If you don’t have a military ID or you do anyway, then by contacting government agencies, you attract attention (like criminals, no wonder, right?) to yourself; and during mobilization, it seems that only those over 60+ can leave the country
There is still uncertainty with mobilization, that is, the door to your apartment can be hidden at any moment and dragged to the military registration and enlistment office by force. It would be possible to hide from mobilization, but in order to hide from mobilization I need to hide in the forest or in the village, but firstly, I don’t have money, and in the village the products will be of lower quality (even if there are some shops there) , the shops will be unreliable and the prices will be high, other people who live in this village may hand me over to the police; there are no houses anywhere in the forest (nowhere to live), nowhere to buy food, maniacs may be encountered or eaten by bears;
labbbb@thelemmy.club 10 months ago
I will, of course, try to gain skills (for example, programming), but again it is difficult due to poor mental health