Kid: Always analysed things pretty neutral and not afraid to question myself.

20’s-30’s (in a xtian cult): everyone is the worst all the time but Jesus …(blablablabla)

Meanwhile internally: IM GONNA DIE AND BURN FOREVER!!! FFFFUUU……

40’s (10 years an atheist now): I’m ok. I may not have been perfect so far and I’ll never be. But that in itself is how it is and it should be. I live as loving and compassionate as I can and that’s all I can expect from myself and others.

( /s I mean think of all the times I didn’t take someone else’s life)