Comment on How to stay sane in a hostile environment that you can't get out of?

remon@ani.social ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

• DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

  Like Antidepressants?

  Or like… those that get the DEA knocking?

  Drugs will result in me being homeless.

  Also literally don’t know any Asians that use drugs, I’d probably get so socially ostricised from the entire Asian community since its stigmatized and that’d suck.

  Also brain damage… I’m trying to not like have memory issues… psychoactive chemicals and all… don’t want even more issues than I already have…

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  • remon@ani.social ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

    Damn, that definitely sounds like a hostile environment I’d want to get out off!

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    • DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

      Idk how.

      My parents ARE the cause of my stunted development and I have no clue how to be “independent”

      The idea of bugeting and bills just terrify me.

      I’m emotionally unable to like be alone because I’m just so used to be with my abusive parents since the beginning of my life

      I’m rarely like “by myself” except for like K-12 school

      Can’t even manage do to college since I was so anxious the entire time I tried…

      Literally so depressed and can’t even sleep in the college apartments because I couldn’t get used to not being with my abusive parents

      Wtf is wrong with me

      They created this trap where I’m not only financially dependent on them, but also emotionally…

      Stockhold syndrome much?

      Idk why

      I KNOW its abusive, but I CRAVE their approval so much

      what the fuck is wrong with me

      I feel so sad if they reject me

      I really wanna kill myself idk why

      I never even had a true friend

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      • photonic_sorcerer@lemmy.dbzer0.com ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

        The fact that you recognize these things is great in and of itself. But to move forward, you might need to force yourself. Start slowly. Take a walk by yourself. Go sightseeing. Visit a museum. Join an animal rescue, or any club you’re interested in. I know, it’s fucking hard. I’m going through something similar myself. But you owe it to yourself to save yourself, because no one is going to do it for you.

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      • swelter_spark@reddthat.com ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

        It’s scary at first to do everything for yourself, but it becomes less scary over time, as you get used to it. Stay focused on your goal of one day not needing them anymore, and don’t give up.

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