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captainlezbian@lemmy.world 2 days agoDon’t judge yourself for a ptsd reaction. People mocked triggers, but it was people who don’t understand that acute reminders of traumatic experiences are not merely unpleasant
andros_rex@lemmy.world 2 days ago
Yeah - I wish more folks understood what the experience is like. It’s like my brain lights on fire. I get angry, extremely angry and can be verbally really aggressive. If I’m alone, I can usually self regulate, but when I’m around others it’s much harder.
It’s been a struggle as I work to get this facility shut down. When I’m calling state agencies to get my torturer’s facility investigated, the second that I can pick up that they don’t believe, or if they minimize my experience - it ratchets me into a world of pure anger and panic.
I knocked over a container earlier and it made a loud sound as it landed on the ground - it made me angry. Embarrassingly ridiculously angry. It’s stupid, but I had the urge to throw the thing at the wall! I wanted to cuss it out! It’s an inanimate object, it didn’t break, I just needed to pick it up and put the pencils back in. It wasn’t a big deal. But in that split second where I went to that lizard brain, I was furious!
captainlezbian@lemmy.world 1 day ago
Have you ever been to a support group for this? What you’re describing is a pretty severe ptsd reaction. I know you said elsewhere that you’ve done a lot of mental health stuff and it’s not helped and has been furtherly traumatic, but having other people who can listen and you can know that they do understand might be good for you.