I was just about to respond to the post with:

“Not true, a person who would normally be out of your league but actually has BPD could swoop down on you and ruin your life at any moment”

It’s still funny, but I will pad my attempt at dark humor with a congratulations to you. The sooner a diagnosis is made, the right meds sorted out, and a solid therapy plan set, the sooner you will find relief from the cyclone of emotions and be able to live your life to the fullest.

It’s a tough hand to be dealt but not an impossible one to get squared away and maintained. You undoubtedly have a lot to offer to the world, as well as a special someone, so just keep putting one right step in front of the other and it’ll all work out.