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• _____@lemm.ee ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

  I get your angle but it’s not a priority for me and it doesn’t affect my mental health despite what you’d logically think from reading my original post.

  I just don’t like me. Period.

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  • Snowclone@lemmy.world ⁨1⁩ ⁨month⁩ ago

    Look man. I know, I know. I also hate myself a bunch and don’t care or think it’s going to stop. I know. I’m not trying to be some kind of dick cheese fart potato, or whatever kids say these days, but like really. It’s exhausting. And it fucks up your life and relationships. There’s a reality. And that reality does occasionally come with positive feedback about yourself and your choices and actions. Now imagine the real reality is a block of metals in some kind of shapes and decorations, when you see this reality what your doing is pulling out positive reality about yourself, melting it down, crafting it into something negative and trying to fit it into the space you took it out of. It’ll never fit, it’s a waste of time, it’s inherently deeply selfish, and it makes you at least partially delusional. Every relationship you have, someone is sending you messages. You are taking them, removing their words or actions, changing their meaning, and pasting it over their actual message. You don’t even know what is happening around you, what people are saying to you, and you’re missing A LOT of positive feedback. And again.

    It’s literally the worst kind of selfish, where you don’t insist your entitled to everything, you instead insist everything means you suck out loud. Why, homie. Why.

    I’ve been doing this shit for 40 years. Let me tell you. It’s a bad end. You need to love yourself to just get to baseline normal and have average times in life. Stop being so selfish you need to sabotage every part of your life making yourself delusional in the process. Fuck!

    Anyway. I can’t do it. I don’t know if it’s possible. But try. Try.

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