I agree with you conceptually. Society is bonkers.

However, it is possible for everyone to build themselves a subset of society that is adapted to them. It is possible for everyone to build a community, a group of friends, that share values. No matter how “out there” it is.

And let me tell you, what can be read from you is quite “out there”. If you go to a scientist/doctor and talk about magic, it can be easily expected for them to dismiss your words. I’m not saying that’s right of them. Magic can or can not exist. I’m talking about knowing reality, and reality is that if you talk about magic in front of scientifically minded individuals, your words will likely be dismissed.

I’m not saying anything you think is either right or wrong. The only thing I would like to say is that you seem like you “know” more than you actually can know. We should always come from a point of “not knowing” by default, and only believe/know something if we can be very very sure about it. “Not knowing” is very scary though, it’s very hard to “not know”. I can always understand the need for explanations. But clutching to explanations based on fear leads to missing scrutiny of beliefs, leading to possibly wrong beliefs. Holding wrong beliefs is very problematic, as any prediction you make can be off, leading you to make wrong decisions.

In any case, I wish you well, hope you can find people to truly listen to you, and hope that you can also truly listen to people.