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The original was posted on /r/AmItheAsshole by /u/BlueB3arrr on 2023-07-22 19:05:10.

My(19f) mum(43f) died of acute myeloid leukaemia yesterday. I won’t go into specifics but I will say her death was expected and dreaded for a year.

The issue is I haven’t showed much emotion towards it. I’m still in shock and denial. I put up a pretty good front with my emotions and I’ve just gotten used to feeling them in private and putting on a brave face, of course I loved my mum and I am mourning her but I just don’t like crying in front of people. I am always open and honest about how I’m feeling but this is a feeling not easily described. I’ve never lost someone close to me.

When my dad asks me how I’m feeling I just say “sad” or “I don’t know”, in a more articulate way. But yesterday he tried to provoke a reaction from me, saying stuff like “you’re never gonna see her again” “you’re never gonna hear her voice again” “aren’t you sad??”, and I just snapped and said “fuck off, you’re a fucking piece of shit, you don’t know how I feel” and I feel like I really hurt him.

He even admitted to trying to poke and prod to get a reaction out of me because “crying is good for you”. It’s the fact my mother JUST passed away and he’s sitting there trying to make me feel worse because he thinks I don’t feel sad about it because I don’t shed a tear in front of people.

AITA?

ETA: they were divorced for 17 years after spending 4 years together, all they did was fight 80% of the time. Idk if it’s relevant but it gives insight to their relationship.