grieving the relief of the angels burden by joybun, released 09 January 2026
it's been so long
just where has all the time gone
we've taken almost seven whole years, or thereabouts, since i last saw her
and i don't really think about her anymore
i can barely even remember her voice, or her face
or her love, or her hate
in the first couple years
how i wept, how i wept
and i wrote, many songs
so many songs, so many albums
so i could tell the story
give justice to the memory
but memories fade away over time, just like feelings
after all of these years of holding on to them
i threw them away, all of the songs that i wrote about her death
but how many more does it take
til i have no verses left?
i tried to forget
then it happened again
and again
and again
i used to check in on all of the people i loved
just in case a tragedy struck
then one day i stopped and three of their lives were taken
it was such a vivid pattern, crystal and clear
so i abandoned myself to nourish the rest
for how many more will it take
til there’s nobody left
oh my heart
it bleeds love
this burden is heavy
i should put myself above
and so i took flight
i flew on away from divine obligation
i disposed of my sacred foundation
and now i am left without purpose at all
i am hollow, empty
void of all but the vaguest notion of a joy that one day supposedly makes its return
inside of the hole that was once filled with duty
there is nothing but grief and despair
i yearn for the light of my halo now thrown away
but in vain
for now i have learned that the light had shined so bright it left me blind
to my story
i’m so sorry
that i can't keep
the angel’s duty
but i couldn't see myself
then it left
and when the weight finally lifted
i couldn't breathe
i thought it would be easier
just to forget
and so i promptly forgot
everything
even myself