I think your internal conflict is valid, but I think it’s okay to let yourself off the hook from squeezing the maximum satisfaction out of a game all the time.

You felt like each of those bosses reached the point of “not being fun anymore”, and you took action to move on and find the fun again.

Likewise, using a summon doesn’t invalidate all the hard work you did already do to learn the patterns. The fights became so easy with the summon BECAUSE the work you put in prior.

You’re over-thinking it, my dude