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vexikron@lemmy.zip 11 months agoI would tell my other family members what you just said about my brother, and they would tell me I am delusional.
Yeah, she needs help. Is she gonna get it? Probably not.
She comes from the Mormon FLDS cult. She once described to me that when she was a teen, her then baby brother fell and had a rusty nail pierce into his skull.
Mom decided a bandage would be fine.
Fast forward 15 years, baby brother has a slew of mental disorders and recently suicided.
But you know what, after how many times I bent over backwards to help her and my bro, and they basically just gaslight me about everything, all the time?
I dont care. Theyre /perfect/ for each other: both are manipulative liars with differing flavors of addiction problems and insanity, so hooray for their toxic co dependant relationship.
And yes… I know that having normal human emotions, while talking about subjects that illicit normal human emotions, in normal humans, is in fact normal.
Sorry if I sound dismissive but… after years and years of handling all my family’s emotional problems for them and being rewarded with less than nothing…
I feel free.
Yes, what happened to me nearly killed me many times, and I am lucky to be alive at all.
But it all opened my eyes.
So much less stress. Yes, being homeless, without money for food was actually /less/ stressful than constantly trying to figure out how to please my ridiculous family members without angering them all the while I am never allowed to express any anger toward them whatsoever.
I… dont know exactly where I am going to go now. I am in a motel, halfway across the country, that at least I can afford to live in and eat for the whole month.
It was very difficult to get here. Torn ligaments, broken muscles, starvation, exposure, and so many fentanyl addicts to get the fuck away from.
I have a lot of talents and skills. I would like to make my own video game someday, with those talents and skills.
First I gotta get my ID replaced, and probably fix up my credit score (all my cards were stolen) before I can actually rent anywhere.
I figure I can actually get a Steam Deck and dual boot it as a workstation with the dock. Seems like the most computational bang for your buck, better than any laptop I can see for a similar price.
Its also portable in case I have to move again!
Have any games actually been /developed/ on a steam deck? That might be a first if I can pull that off haha.
webghost0101@sopuli.xyz 11 months ago
A steam deck is basically an arch linux laptop. I bet there are ways you could connect it to a bigger monitor and keyboard to simulate a proper pc though part of why it performs well might be the lower res for the smaller internal display.
There are some great free options to learn game design. Godot, blender. I am most certain its doable to build something but getting a livable wage as an indie game dev itself is a real challenge. Watch indie game the movie for reference on it. Chatgpt, even the free version can also quickly help you get up to speed to plan such kind of project.
Speaking as someone who has studied game development, i hope to make my own games aswell but purely as a hobby cause id be unrealistic to believe to get an income out of it. i could never accept a job in the industry where my talent is exploited for profit so even as a portfolio it wouldn’t do.
vexikron@lemmy.zip 11 months ago
Ah yes excellent, you actually agree with me!
So yeah, big suprise that me, autistic data analyst is also pretty deep into FOSS stuff.
My plan would be to dual boot it with PopOS! I jave been using (and actually doing quite a lot of useful testing) for PopOS! untill my life shittified. I am very familiar with it at this point, and at least the way I was using it on an AMD GPU/CPU(x86/64) was /very/ stable, amd because its ultimately based off of debian, it has a /huge/ library of free software.
The Steam Deck actually has an official dock now, basically quite similar to a laptop dock… set it in, and the dock connects to keyboard mouse monitor external controller, etc.
And I have already been learning Godot for a while too! Especially after Unity has just kind of shit the bed in terms of the recent ‘you owe us a cut of all the profits’ bullshit, Godot seems like a great option.
I have already found a lot of good tutorials and used them to prototype basic map system, third and first person animations and camera movements, and Ive already spent time blocking out about the first year of getting core systems and mechanics in place. Godot Script or whatever is very similar to Python, which I have a lot of experience in.
I am also a decent writer for dialogue and such, and could honestly just use chatgpt to fill in the gaps haha, and I could use speech synthesis until I can afford to pay voice actors. Also, I know how to 3D model and do textures as well!
The most time consuming things for me personally would probably be adding in more custom animations, as that isnt something I have prior experience with.
Mixamo does have a lot though, and I may be able to sort of isolate parts of them and have other anims be partially or totally procedural.
As for player models themselves, Godot already has something like a plugin called like HumanCreator or something, which would serve as good foundation for a character creator, and could also be set to use various bounded variables as presets for different NPC races or factions or whatever.
Beasts and animals are a bit trickier, but I can always try to tackle that /after/ I have made decent progress on other parta of the game.
Further, as I have often been bored with not much elae to do, I’ve already spent a lot of time writing down worldbuilding ideas which also inform, impact and in some cases define much of the actual gameplay I am going for… backdrop lore for the world itself etc.
Finally: I do not need to immediately be making a living wage, as I have SSDI to keep me alive until I feel that what I have ia good enough to start up the kickstater, indiegogo, or steam early access.
webghost0101@sopuli.xyz 11 months ago
While you could always try PopOS i would expect the hardware and customization to Arch to perform better. Valve needed the best gaming performance and making games tends to require a similar or slightly higher performance then what playing will require.
For world building i can recommend obsidian as a good note taking app to connect dots and links between different files, there are some great tutorials about it. If you can afford it chatgpt plus can be mighty powerful as you can program a specific gpt for specific world building needs, a culture specialist, a character specialist, a storywritter, a dialogue and book generator,… each can hold multiple text files which it can reference from.
I am expecting game development to change a lot the coming years thanks to AI, i have seen some early experiments of ai generated animations. Personally i would keep things basic for a start and focus purely on game play and coding. Games and ideas change as you build on them and looks are most easy to change later.
Best of luck, i am rooting for you!
vexikron@lemmy.zip 11 months ago
I again very much appreciate the advice, and its nice to know /someone/ is rooting for me lol.
Now… this may be an unfair criticism at this point but:
When I first got into Arch (and this was /before/ the Steam Deck was a thing) I found it to be a chaotic mess that required reading literally hundreds of pages of /unofficial community wiki documentation that was often wrong/ to even get a stable bare metal build of Arch working that could actually you know like function as a working computer, without having to bugfix for 3 hours before I could use basically any program… and then some major dependency would update, conflict with another major dependency and blam back to ok now I have to rethink my ENTIRE arch build AGAIN.
Oh, right. The community was basically just awful. Terrible.
PopOS! on the other hand was uh… dl iso, flash, boot, run installer, reboot, then install apps and configure the OS, and I rarely ever had a dependency update bork the whole OS.
Now, granted, that was 1) When I was less well versed in linux and 2) Before the Steam Deck, so its possible that the Steam Deck OS has more or less corralled the expanded Arch Universe into actually having some sane standards merely by being the biggest and most important fish in the Arch pond.
Though I still am fond of PopOS!, I will give a more desktop oriented configuration of Arch a try as a dual boot, and I would be very appreciative if you could point me toward an Arch config that is know to work with reasonable stability on a Steam Deck, if such a thing exists.
Please let it have at least by default a DE, or configurable DEs either in the installer or in different flavored downloadable isos.
Yeah, I was trying out Arch back when it did not by default have a DE and you had to manually figure out all the dependencies to install one, via CLI.
Please dear god do not put me through that again lol.
I will try out Obsidian… is that available on F Droid, Aurora, NeoStore or just plain old Google App Store? Just got the shitty $200 phone from a grocery store right now.
I will look into ChatGPT maybe later, after I am actually living somewhere hopefully permanently. Did not know you can customize different use case for it now, very neat!
I also have seen some procedural methods of generating animations in demonstrations for research papers…
… but there was one tutorial I found of someone implementing… not quite as good, but probably a framework that could be built into something close to GTA’s style of ‘when the world or objects clip into your character, it modifies their animations so they do not clip through the world or objects’… already, in Godot, with available code to just grab.
You would probably have to do a bit more work to get it up to Euphoria engine quality, but this guy already figured out the fundamentals /and implemented them in Godot/, so thats why I was considering it.
You are absolutely correct though that ultimately that is not really a core feature and probably shohld not be first priority.
I am thinking though that procedural level design is going to be a fairly important core feature of what I am going for.
This may sound absurd for a single dev, but I would like to make something that can eventually be turned multiplayer, but is initially single player for early deb and testing purposes.
Hub zones would be defined cities or encampments that feature a higher number of NPCs, but are smaller than the overworld map, and are where a lot of NPCs would just be going about their daily business, a bit more in depth simulation than just MMO style quest givers just standing there waiting for you. Probably would also be a kind of safe zone for players to more safely socialize in, enforced either by a world/game mechanic, or just lots of npc guards. Still brainstorming that part. Procedural generation could possibly be used to simply lay the foundation of multiple differing hubs simply as a dev tool so i dont have to level design tens or settlements/cities.
Then you would have the overworld, larger but more sparsely populated by npcs, and with a hopeful balance between graphical goodness and draw distance.
In the overworld would be more or less dungeon entrances of various kinds. Due to the setting of the game, theres a lot of tectonic activity going on, sometimes a volcano might go off or something, maybe an asteroid or satellite impacts the ground and changes the terrain, so different psuedo random world events could cause some ‘dungeon entrances’ to pop into being, others to disappear. The dungeons themselves I would like to be able to have basically procedurally generated, with a number of different styles of dungeons.
Add this all up and you get something approximating say Fallout New Vegas, but the overworld itself changes, and the actual high risk high reward dungeon areas actually organically change simply as time goes on in the game, so that no two playthroughs are the same.
Then if the single player works… make at least part of the game multiplayer. Yeah I know God help me with that rofl.