Eh, it’s a different place now. My family who worked there in the 90s and 2000s had completely alien experiences to when I went there in last year. All I’m saying is it’d be wise to be aware of what options you have.

Mental health acceptance is stilk a huge issue. My mom told me about a story where allegedly someone in either her village or a neighboring village (can’t even understand what exactly she said because I’m not as fluent in Cantonese as English) had a family that has a son that “doesn’t act normal” and instead of trying to help, they perceived him as a threat and just locked him inside the house, barely treated him like a human being and only fed him out of pity… like an animal on a barn…

And also my mom just told me a story on WeChat about in Guangdong, an autistic person that got accepted into a University but then they found out about his autism so they expelled him for that after he already got accepted. So yeah… that would’ve caused outrage in the west. There is not really an ADA equivalent in China.

My mother kinda lowkey hates me for having depression… can’t imagine what’s its like in China, everyone would just call me “lazy” or “useless eater” or some shit… China is very conservative, its MAGAland but with Chinese Characteristics.

Also, if I posted any of my posts that I posted here about my mother’s behaviors on the Chinese internet… oh jeez they’re gonna just attack me for being “unfilial”, at least westerners sort of sympathize. In China, parents are always right, the kids are always wrong.

My ideal country would be one with a lot of Asians (or more specifically, ethnic Han Chinese) but that are westernized. Cuz then I have safety of not having to deal with racism, but also not having to deal with conservative culture bullshit.

Like just build one massive island then gather all the Westernized ethnic Han Chinese there, build our own country, without authoritarian bullshit, then I’d be safe.