You know what I’m going to say something different and I hope it’s not too inappropriate.

The other commenters have done well so far. But have you considered using some of your money for therapy? I see you said you’re on antidepressants, but I wasn’t sure if you were already in therapy or not.

I don’t mean this as a cop out answer and I don’t mean that they will directly help you with your finances. But it might be a good idea to talk to someone about the “nothing matters because the world is going to shit” mentality. Even if there is merit to what you say, it isn’t exactly helping you feel happy or satisfied with your life. If you can learn to cope with this particular thought, you might find the rest falling into place a little easier.