The life should be with love not things you said, love of God. I think you have understood religion wrong; you think the religion is like a cruel dictator which punishes you if you do something wrong in its opinion. The religion is “I do this because I love God”. If I do something God told me to do, my life will get better; not only my “life”, even my after life. I think I cannot describe better in comments if a lemmy post. This is something we should talk about in a physical meeting.