sorry missread that.

but yeah … one of the most embarassing thought i ever had was, “i wanna be a goth”. at a point at which i was already pretty much integrated in my local community of sorrows. i wanted to match my cool new friends. for the wrong reason.

i am embarassed of this bc at the time i thought it would be important to belong to group and be good at that. i was a little in love with the clichees.

do what you genuinly like and find people who you can share with. that’s all there is about subcultures. the rest follows. people who hang out a lot tend to converge in style and habit.