Listen to me: try putting maximum effort into improving yourself.

“I will just finally blow my head off next pay. Then maybe they will finally ask if they did something wrong.”

What makes you think that people who have not acknowledged your efforts until now will suddenly gain enough self-awareness to realize that they are the problem after you take your own life?

Join an offline community, engage in fieldwork, sports, or anything where you don’t have to be the best—just be there. Just know that I am rooting for you.