Sounds to me like you were a workoholic. My brother-in-law has parents like that. I go to my sisters for the holidays, and there’s these two. We’re all sitting around the couch. We’re all relaxing. We’re all talking, and enjoying family time. Then these two are just nervously pacing around the room “ah, let me take that can, are ya done with it? I’ll recycle it! Can I take that plate? I’ll put it in the dishwasher. Do you want anything while I’m up? I could grab you some cheese, maybe some crackers? I saw fruit. How about a jalepeno popper? I could make some garlic bread. It’d only take a few minutes. Here, let me dust these drapes. Have you had enough cookies?”

Finally one day I just snapped. “LENNY! SIT YOUR ASS DOWN AND ENJOY FAMILY TIME! MERRY CHRISTMAS, OK??? THAT’S WHAT WE’RE DOING!”

Nice people. Very honest hard working upstanding people. But sometimes you feel like people working around you while you’re relaxing is too much. It feels wrong.

That kind of sounds like where you are. You spent so much time GO GO GO GO that now you feel uneeded and without purpose.

My advice is, think back to your busy time. I’m sure while you were working you said “man, it would be great if I had time for this hobby…I’d love to get into this hobby, but now everything is so busy!”

Well. Now is that time. Enjoy your hobby. And for gods sakes man! Sit down and enjoy christmas by the fireplace with your family!