You can’t hold 6 year old kids accountable for stupid stuff they do. I totally understand your feelings, but the best thing you can do is just be a nice person. So take care of others, but also of yourself. Only give when you have something to give, but also only take what you really need. The hurt and shame might stay, but try to nourish it. Us it as inspiration for being a good person from now on. Feed it with more self-punishment and it will only get heavier, like a stone arouns your neck that’s growing and pulling you under. Nobody will be happier when you drown, so don’t. Just do your best, that’s all you can do ❤️