If I had the final resources and executive functioning to do so, I would.

I have already experienced torture. The apartment I have right now is the first time in the thirty-ish years of my life that I have not been under the control of an abusive and dangerous person.

I can’t make my brain work enough to finish the 2 hour class I need for my masters. I can barely make it work to find another job, so I can get health insurance, and afford the help making my brain work.