You’re actually unwell then. Seek professional help because Nintendo is not your friend. This is going to blow up in your face some day, and it is going to end poorly for you.

Mental health issues are complicated and suicide is awful, and idk you or your situation. Whatever happened, it’s good that you’re still here, but this religious devotion to a corporation is fucking disgusting. When you find out that Nintendo employees laugh at people like you during their lunch breaks, will you still feel like they’re your angels? How much labor have you given to them, both in the form of money you earned to buy their products, and online activity to defend their honor?

Don’t give yourself to a corporation like this. If you were saved, Nintendo weren’t the ones who did it.