From your other reply, it seems to me that you’re likely a sociopath, which basically means you are by default a narcissist, as you only see the world in how it relates to you, as opposed to how others relate to you, and others to others.

You genuinely seem to have no ability to reflexively empathize with others, neither in a real time interaction, nor afterward.

You are your only emotional frame of reference, which means all of socializing basically is just a game you play to achieve some goal or goals… which is the same thing as saying, you do not comprehend how socializing could be anything other than a game of manipulating people, which other people are just worse at than you.

Apparently with the DSM V, sociopathy and psychopathy have basically been redefined, together, into ASPD.

So… yeah.

Please see a therapist.