Even if you have been greatly wronged by everyone you trust, that doesn’t necessarily mean you were ever even around trustworthy people.

There’s so much to experience beyond pain, loneliness, distrust and suffering (outside of incurable medical pain)

It does exist and it is available to you, but when anyone has their trust destroyed beyond repair multiple times it will take work to let the pain go and look inward and forward to get what you want out of life.

For all I know, you’re the asshole in everyone else’s life and you blame them for breaking your trust - or you are a complete victim who has been taken advantage of every step of the way and it’s impossible to conceive of a person existing who isn’t working every angle to take advantage of you.

You do have agency and you can control how you think and feel about most things. It sounds like you are convinced that life only exists in a single, permanent, unchangeable state - and if you don’t attempt any change in this perspective it will become a self fulfilling prophecy.

But once you realize the control you can exert over these thoughts and perspectives you’ll hopefully realize that despite other people, when you’re an adult life is what you make of it, not what it makes of you.