Never know, you could have undiagnosed adhd which when untreated for a lifetime manifests as anxiety and depression. Like me. Or it could be something different.

It might take you a bit to find it but that’s normal. Those friends of mine warned me it often takes time to find the right mix so you’re not unusual… Just prepare in advance to keep sloggin’ until something hits. It will, but it will take more time than you’d like. I wish i had a better sales pitch.

Finally don’t consider your genes or brain broken, that’s just our brain doin’ the same ol’ self-hate as usual but with extra stolen labcoat to slip or defenses