ProxyZeus
@ProxyZeus@lemmy.world
The man but not the myth or legend
- Comment on AT&T sues Broadcom for refusing to renew perpetual license support 2 months ago:
I like this case for the matter that I don’t think there is a way for them to really settle, so this could come out with a pretty good precedent for consumers and licenses
- Comment on Video of Eric Schmidt blaming remote work for Google’s woes mysteriously vanishes 2 months ago:
I’m genuinely confused by this? I know CompSci and engineering majors that are having trouble with loans and are you saying that they should have tried a more profitable degree… What?
- Comment on Is the US finally getting ‘all aboard’ with electric trains? 2 months ago:
Yes
- Comment on Is the US finally getting ‘all aboard’ with electric trains? 2 months ago:
Well if we get good transport, I’m going to ride it duh
- Comment on Is the US finally getting ‘all aboard’ with electric trains? 2 months ago:
I can’t wait for the US to finally have decent public transport, I hate having to drive for everything
- Comment on Have you ever realized just how broken you are? 2 months ago:
I have had a similar expierence with this, my mother would mostly ignore my input if I didn’t or did want to do something or if I knew she was wrong she would still ignore me and then find out she was wrong and rarely acknowledge I was right.
I never thought about this affecting me until I was watching an interview with a psychologist about 2 years ago and I really resonated with part of it but it never left my mind. Recently I rewatched it and part a different part of it resonated deeper when the guy talked about disagreeing with his parents even though they thought they were right and they listened… I was unsure of what exactly that part was resonating with so I listened to it again. I decided to mix up drink shake mixture but I couldn’t bring myself to do it for some reason I was just locked up about making the drink for like 10 min even though I know I wanted to make the drink. While trying to get myself to do it.
I noticed that there were internal voices that sounded different one was saying
do I want to go thought the effort to clean the shaker though
The other one though was saying
do you even want the drink
AND THEN IT HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK–THE 2ND WAS MY MOTHERS VOICE
Then I was hit with and started processing all the anger, sadness, and anxiety that I felt and didn’t realize I had pent up because of her ignoring me and brushing me off.
Its a tough thing to process and work through, I still am, but I feel better as a person now and more in control of my actions after the realization.
If I had to recommend anything to help, I would say let yourself feel those feelings you were repressing let them out in safe manners like writing down how you feel about stuff or hell I just let myself cry for like an hour after the dam burst it made me feel a lot better. Of course a therapist could help you too but the above two can help otherwise.
Also HealthyGamerGG is a really good YouTube channel with a lot of resources about mental health, it’s where the interview I was watching happened.
I wish you the best on your journey
- Comment on AMD may have delayed Ryzen 9000 launch due to a typo — mislabeled Ryzen 7 chip emerges, Ryzen 5 9600X impacted, too [Updated] 3 months ago:
You know, I’ll take it at this point
- Comment on Steam Is Run By Fewer Than 80 Staff, Lawsuit Docs Reveal 3 months ago:
They also maintain file hosting for saves, game versions and a lot of useful apis for games partner.steamgames.com/doc/features
- Comment on Steam Is Run By Fewer Than 80 Staff, Lawsuit Docs Reveal 3 months ago:
Love to refactor, the more I watch the Mesa graphics drivers and the employees valve hired that work on it the more I believe it
- Comment on Microsoft may lose $120 million due to the Overwatch League shutdown 1 year ago:
Hopefully Microsoft allows for a more community based competitive scene to grow
- Comment on Gamedev and linux 1 year ago:
All users are basically QA after QA in any type of product
- Comment on There once was a programmer 1 year ago:
Tbf some technical interviews are bs
- Comment on Is there an alternative to "motherfucker" that people would actually use? 1 year ago:
Nailed it on the head