You’re all still doing good
At least you use your free time with something you like

I’m usually just trying to cope with being stressed out and want to chill for at least a bit
I always look forward to stuff, I want to do, but my hobbies are to close to my work stuff, and even just watching a show often feels to much of a commitment
So I just get sedated and do nothing…and it’s the worst decision - at least by now it has gotten obvious, that this doesn’t work…