Basically I was lured in (or “ideologically groomed”) to fascism, and as people around me started to go more mask-off, I thought I need to leave ASAP or I cross the point of no return. Then I had to learn that conservatism wasn’t about “moderate nationalism” but “power for power sake”. Then I had to learn, that communism wasn’t bad because of the lack of nationalism but due to the authoritarianism part. So first I became an “edgy liberal” to address the “rampant political correctness” of “the left”, then I learned that socialism can be much more than Kádár-era work morals and the secret police torturing people until they admit to horrible crimes.