I don’t feel some gender either, but my agab has always felt off, like ill-fitting clothes. Also due to the cultural/societal expectations and limitations instilled during upbringing, which made me further reject the idea of ‘being’ my agab.

I’ve come to think that if I had been assigned the opposite gender, maybe I would have felt it equally ill-fitting.

A few years ago I came across the concept of agender and it resonated. It took off pressure of the need for there to be something, where there is nothing, and it’s ok.