First, your mom is being toxic af and you are not a coward. However, she is not wrong that going outside can help with depression. It likely won’t “cure” you as it sounds like you are in a difficult situation, but it can be helpful to take short walks every day.

That being said, the ICE shit is scary af. I’m not American but I worry every single day for my family members living there. We are Mexican and the fear, IMO, is warranted, because they don’t even seem to care about legal status. I’ve been avoiding visiting for this same reason, and will not go down there until I feel it is safe to do so.

From my understanding though, they are not everywhere as much as social media makes them seem. My uncle and cousin down there (Chicago and San Diego) go about their regular days and even travel between the US and Mexico frequently and tell me they still feel safe doing so.

Even if you don’t go outside, I would highly, HIGHLY recommend disconnecting from social media for a while or limiting your intake. The difference I feel mentally when my usage goes from like 2-4 hrs down to ~30 mins or less is huge. Find another hobby like crafting or even video games if you don’t feel safe doing stuff outside yet.

Lastly, also, I said this to you a few days ago and will say it again, YOU MATTER. You are not a coward & being afraid of this insane fucking world is a reasonable response. I hope you can escape your parents house soon. You got this!