I've been getting back into Christianity lately for a variety of reasons but I've also been doing a lot of research into the history and philosophy and whatnot and reconciling:

that outer sphere of what all these different people over the centuries have written and decided to include or exclude from their various compilations and what motivated them morally or especially politically to do so

vs

the inner sphere of my own lived experience with what does and does not make the world a better place and what motivations exist in the modern day to practice or interpret those centuries of texts in one way or another

and honestly it's actually been really interesting from an academic perspective as well. It's a fascinating combination of history, language, culture, and even what influences it's had on the sciences over time like I recently wound up learning some stuff about early geometry and the ways it's affected the architecture of churches.