Thank you, i hope i will eventually get to a point were i can reconnect with her, but now it’s not time yet, as you said. She would be happy to listen to me and very sympathetic. Really wish i could afford therapy rn haha. I’m lucky to have friends who are happy to listen to me and try to help each in their own way. And as for romance ill make sure to stay away from it for a good bit lol. Thank you very much again fir your support and kind words, wish you a good day :)