I’ve had the same experience, though only for about the past 10 years, and at 45 now, it’s more like there’s a single day in any given month where the crazy depression/dark thoughts and rage at the simplest stupid shit occurs, and by now I’m able to stop in the moment and recognize that it’s just temporary, and it always resolves itself in an hour or two. I can’t wait for menopause to hit and for all this shit to be over.