I’m in a bad mood. but im not angry, unfortunately. im not angry, it wouldve been easier to just say that. to just blame someone for it or yell at something or break something expensive and go with whatever calms me down, but no. im sad and upset. i dont know why. i hate that sentence. im sick, but i dont think thats it. im tired but i dont think thats it either. theres just something wrong with me lately and i guess nobody bothered to leave a note explaining what it is so i can just go back to my daily habits. i feel, lonely. which is embarrassing to admit because im not exactly surrounded by people i desperately want to talk to. i could have someone sitting beside me right now and still feel alone. my head is exhausting. usually, i can argue with it. i can tell myself i mbeing dramatic, stupid, irrational, random, whatever ive had enough practice at this point. tonight. i dont even want to argue anymore. im too tired to fight my own thoughts. they can say whatever they want. im just sitting here listening to them like some idiot who forgot how to change the channel on the remote. i dont want to do anything. i dont want to explain anything. i dont want to fix anything. i dont even want to think about tomorrow. i just want everything in my head to shut up for a while.
thats all, im tired of being inside my own head, and unfortunately thats where i live. and i hate it.
Sincerely, someone who’s obviously tired