WTF.
Today started out with the reminder that it may be my dogs last day. I am still not ready.
It was not quite as productive and busy yesterday. I can’t tell if that is a good thing or not, because I felt as if I had to fully acknowledge how I am feeling, which resulted in a lot of crying.
I could not eat this morning, the best I could do was a cup of coffee, which I hate taking on an empty stomach. I think I doomscrolled for a bit/started packing in short bursts of energy. It was weird. The energy was weird. The weirdest of all was my dog acting and looking completely fine and normal. It is disheartening and charming at the same time. Does she even know that I am just waiting for her to be ready? However, I have to leave in just a couple of days so I can’t wait any longer. My heart feels physically broken – like my chest physically hurts.
I am pulling every single string so I can have her for just one extra day.
It is too much. Everything happening right now is just too much.
To top it all of, I had an ATM machine malfunction on me on my last errand. Now I have to go to the bank tomorrow and get it sorted out because my deposit did not go through :/
Thank you for your message. I am currently out of office with no set return date. I will get back to you when the time is right.