THE TRAUMA OF MY EVERY DAY LIFE – why living with Bipolar 1 and cPTSD makes every day feel like it's unlivable...
...and on top of that: NOBODY LISTENS.
Seeking out a trauma therapist. No GENERIC therapist, someone with the specialty in trauma.
The mood swings (even on medication) and constant hypervigilence is leaving me exhausted every day and this has been repeatedly going on for almost 3 years.
IMAGINE: scanning every environment, every interaction, reading every face/gesture, and more of other people's behavior all day long. And the mood swings on top of that. I literally have nothing left.
I cannot do this anymore. If I don't get out of my own head, days are going to repeatedly feel exhausting more and more.