I can never understand what the problem is with people and me, especially the people who call me their friend. Whenever they want something, I provide it to them immediately without them having to tell me again on chat, but when it’s my turn, I have to write 2 to 3 times, and if there is more stuff coming, I have to deliberately ask them again for that stuff instead of them just sending it. Even important announcements are not sent by them.
I have created many WhatsApp groups with different people because of this reason, but then again, none of the fuckers neither talk in the group nor send anything.
Recently, I had some stuff to be dealt with, and that fucker told me he would tell me the time and that I did not have to worry about it. Then, as usual, I had to deliberately ask him, and he said, “Come.” Then, in boiling heat at 12 PM, I got out and traveled, while I could have done that at 10 AM. And when I got there, that fucker left and voice-messaged me to come the next day and get the signing done. If I were in his place, that thing to tell him the time would have stuck to my brain the whole night, and until I told him the timing, that thing would have kept stressing me and put weight on my brain.
Not only this, almost all the groups I have been a part of, I have usually been the guy who is just there for entertainment purposes and has no value, and leaving the group would have changed absolutely nothing. That kind of saddens me because I want to be noticed.
From the start, I have always been a quiet kid, and people never remembered me. And when I was around them for 2 hr, they get shocked and usually say, “When have you been here?”
That’s true. I make a lot of jokes, and all are diabolical, that no one can even think of saying or even think about, which makes everyone laugh. But I think because of that, people start to hurt me physically, like tapping the back of my head, punching me while laughing on my stomach, or just casually making me look bad because a girl is also hearing all of my stuff, and they have to make them look like macho or simp or chad, whatever you want to call it. I don’t like people like these at all. I really want to hurt them very badly, but I can’t because of morals, so I use my imagination and put my leg on their shoulder and stretch their neck until it gets torn from the body like a paper. The satisfaction I get doing it is soooo satisfying. They never interact and make my jokes more diabolical. I have met no one like this yet. If the girl does not have a problem hearing my stuff, who the fuck are you stopping me? Why can’t she stop me?
All of these people treat women like some kind of different creature that can be hurt by small things, like they are humans like us after all, twin.
All the friend groups of mine are built because of some situation, just like I made friends or they call me their friend because of situation. It would be nice if I had just a random friend group not based on situations.
I thought of using the internet as the medium to make friends, and I made a lot of friends, especially on Discord, but all of them were related to tech, which is again a situation. Some of them were kids, some of them were paranoid Russians, and some of them were just uncs. It does not matter what the platform is, I only know tech people.
It would be amazing if I could also do all of those stuff that people on my Insta do, like going to concerts and bars or just normal travelling, etc...