I can’t talk to people, especially women. From the start, I have had this problem. With people whom I think are richer than me or in a better condition than me, my voice automatically goes down, and I start acting like that woman who is around a group of her boyfriends, just staying there in silence, maybe looking at the phone, but I don’t like to use the phone other than in my personal space. I don’t even like to watch pirated movies, just sitting there observing everyone.
And with women, if I find the woman beautiful, I stutter talking to them, and then that one guy comes who laughs at my stutter and mimics it. It would be sooo nice if I had the power to stop time. I would just take that guy somewhere and grab his jaw’s teeth by the hands, put one of my legs on his shoulder from behind, and rip his head off. Anyways, if the girl is ugly, I usually have no problem talking to them, but if I eventually get attracted to them, then it may create a problem. And I also can’t talk with people of other groups, you know, like in college or other branches. I think the problem is them being sooo retarded. All the stuff they talk about is just girls, boobs, sex, or study, or how fucked up the teacher is. I have no common topic to discuss with them. I am in a tech branch, and these retards are just retards and teacher bootlickers. They know nothing. Absolute 0. The one thing that could be common is not there. They have no interest in these stuff, or they have it, but they hide it. But will the whole class hide it? :question mark face: I just want to talk.
There is another problem of people not having personality, specially all of these big-boob beautiful women or those curly-hair performative retards and their groups. These fuckers are literally the definition of an NPC. They have this hierarchy in their group, and on Instagram have some trying to be cringe, funny PFP like, twin, you are not tough, and whatever you put is definitely not cringe and funny. Fucking fakers.
Another problem I face is I can’t be open with a person. Whether it’s family or friends, I want to be open. I want to talk about literally anything, totally unhinged, with maybe some cringe terms in between. My stuttering problem is because of this shit. I just don’t know what to say in front of women because I think they are a judge, and I have to give my best performance because I might have a chance to mate with this species, lol. And it happens automatically even if I try not to do it. It’s like my dick whenever it sees a beautiful woman always gets aroused and does not go down, never ever. Typical dick.
So what I was saying is I can’t talk to people. To make myself talk to people, I have decided that I am going to put out an anonymous advertisement, and people can join me, and either I can listen to them, or they can listen to me, or both. I just hope some girl doesn’t come to my meet, otherwise my imagination sector of the brain will start to work, and I want to be in real life, and it is going to be totally unhinged. Like, be cringe, be political, say literally anything as long as it’s not random noise. I will listen and reply. Plus, there is a privacy layer between us because I would be using a burner account with Proton Meet, Nostr, Matrix, or XMPP. You will never know who I am, which enables me to say unhinged shit as well.